hati menyepak

haruskah aku menyerah melawan kebisingan

menggumpal dlm tnda tanya

haruskah perasaan itu aku daki

agar semakin besar keyakinanku?

di sini dan hari ini aku tinggalkan mereka berteka teki

biar hati bermonolog sendiri

umum

hari ini ingin aku bakar,

sepi, apa sahaja yg ada yg bisa menimbulkan bayang,

pun kau;

hingga aku yakin aku telah sendirian.

waktu ini berjalan begitu lambat,

seolah menghardik diri terkoyak sepi,

IA itu rumit hingga enga bisa kuberkelit,

kenapa nga pergi saja jika sepi selalu selimuti?

nga peka kah ama semuanya?

dahan itu rapuh kenapa dipatahkan?

kecewa namun tertawa.

iyaa aku manusia walau punya hati sekeras batu,

masih ada ruang ruang kecil mahu di isi,

kenapa harus menyangka dari setia?

.........................................................................................

*otak xbetoi*

i cried for you.

about 4 months ago,

i met you,

i like you,

momma, sisters, granny and even daddy,

they like you too,

day by day I've started to love you,

u're so cute and smart

im so in love. darn, i can't deny it

Theres two things i know for sure,

he was sent here from heaven...

and he was the reason i decreased my 'bekeng'..

as i drop to my knees to play at night...
he purrs at me and i close my eyes...
and i thank God for all the joy in my life...

You brightened my day, sometimes you play with a toy,

like a sweet little boy,

running mad and sometimes bad.

last 3 months,

i was praying; please get well soon.

lets play together again,

i run and you come to catch me,

how i missed the moment my dear KAKA.

today,

im confussed.

should i keep praying the same?

We've had so many happy times,

what is to come can hold no fears.

Why you must be in suffer? So,

i decided....

GOD, please take him with you as soon as possible

let him rest in peace in the heaven.

i cant bear to see his gloomy face,

i can bear to hold him when he was eating,

i can bear to hear his pain voice,

when the time comes, i'll let you go

perhaps....

I'll see you again,
At Heavens' Eye

*i love you so much Kaka.

*mood: extremely sad